when you are taught by your fellow student

Can you feel somebody’s heartbeat from a distance? What about somebody’s mind and what he or she’s thinking? Have you ever dreamed to have such ability, a weird and eerie ability? If I can have such, I’m a genius by then, like Professor X or an insane person trying to reach the stars just for that dream.
This could be a topic-starter quite unmatched to this simple topic “...when you are taught by a fellow student.” I’ll try to share this to you because if you were on my shoe, you could have also thought of the same thing.
During the Know Your School Day, I tried to apply a certain position and that’s being a teacher in Computer 1, but unfortunately I haven’t made even just the application. I have got a lot of things to do and I lost time for this, they say special, stuff. So I remained as a student during the Know Your School Day celebration and that is for two days.
Sometimes, when I've got nothing to do but to listen to the one discussing at the front, I can’t help myself imagining if I was the one on the of the people at the front.
I tried to look at them straight at the eyes when it’s their turn to speak. Their irises contain almost the same things. There you can see the tension flowing in every of their nerves; the patience at the left hand which is trying to control the anger the right hand is gripping due to some students not listening.
But there was a different thing when it was my crush’ turn to take the floor. Unlike the other student teachers, I can’t see anything in her eyes which means shivering of her nerves. It was only her self confidence that I can see. Instead, I was the one feeling nervous for her.
First thing that entered my mind was will she make it through? Every cell of my body was on panic. Good, they soon found their places. Five hundred cells were praying, another two hundred prepared the dictionary and the thesaurus for every word she might forget, three hundred prepared my eyes, ears and air passages, and all the rest, guarded my heart and lungs for any arrests. Quite exaggerating for me to count every cell but that’s exactly what I feel deep inside. When she ended speaking, my cells were relieved of the tension in my nerves which was released out from my body as a fragrant carbon dioxide from my anus. Oh, I haven’t thought right away how disgusting my release to the one at the back was.
Through this, I knew that being a teacher could never be as simple as I thought earlier. Although I wasn’t able to experience how to neither be a teacher nor even applied to be such even for just several days, I still got the point what the event is trying to mean, by those who experienced.
Kudos!

torpedo

What would your expression be if you just knew that your crush already know about your greatest secret, and that’s your fervor to her or him? Maybe it would just be alright for you but what if, you were trying to tell the whole wide world just a while ago that you really love the girl; she’s the fairest of all that nobody can ever be as beautiful as her, with those shimmering eyes every time you look at her stunning manifestation, telling the whole fact not minding if she already knew that she’s the one you trying to describe. Isn’t it annoying?
If you were I, you might say “Yes, finally!”, but a geek like me can never do such. I might feel tensed instead.
Last January 25, during the KYSD celebration, she sat beside me. So I tried to carry out myself as a well-behaved man. I don’t know why it is that by that time, as if my heart’s so close to my ears that I can hear almost every throb of it and the nervousness that accompanies every throb. By the way, she sat beside me not actually because of me but she wanted to go near where her friend student teachers were. Besides, I already expected that reason because she’ll never make it just for me.
Isn’t it just a single moment’s needed to express what I really feel? When she looked at me, as if I’ve swollen a cork that has stocked up in my throat and no air can escape. I tried to smile but even the fly flying above her head can’t notice.
According to a friend of mine, who I’ve just currently considered as such because of this problem, “Girls like her are just waiting for the boys to make the first step”. She said, “Girls are also shy. If you really want to take the girl’s attention and make friend with her or much more than that, you mustn’t look down on yourself,” she told me.
“Once the girl knows about how you feel for her,” she added, “she’ll try to measure your sincerity. When she uses some humiliating words such as `eeew’, there are only two reasons: she’s trying to keep her feelings for you deep inside her and release it on the right time, for as of now she’s just afraid others will know about it or you’re just so unlucky, she’s sincere on what she said.”
I bet, nobody can answer my lonely yet quiet weird tale. Nothing can express what I’m feeling right now for her even a wild flower can never be this strange. If only either Mr. Bruce or Mr. Clark can lend to me his cape for me someday to take the girl’s hand with me so that the both of us will be flying high with the clouds beneath our knees.
But is my crush really like what my friend said? I hope so cause that’s exactly what I’m feeling for her.