torpedo

What would your expression be if you just knew that your crush already know about your greatest secret, and that’s your fervor to her or him? Maybe it would just be alright for you but what if, you were trying to tell the whole wide world just a while ago that you really love the girl; she’s the fairest of all that nobody can ever be as beautiful as her, with those shimmering eyes every time you look at her stunning manifestation, telling the whole fact not minding if she already knew that she’s the one you trying to describe. Isn’t it annoying?
If you were I, you might say “Yes, finally!”, but a geek like me can never do such. I might feel tensed instead.
Last January 25, during the KYSD celebration, she sat beside me. So I tried to carry out myself as a well-behaved man. I don’t know why it is that by that time, as if my heart’s so close to my ears that I can hear almost every throb of it and the nervousness that accompanies every throb. By the way, she sat beside me not actually because of me but she wanted to go near where her friend student teachers were. Besides, I already expected that reason because she’ll never make it just for me.
Isn’t it just a single moment’s needed to express what I really feel? When she looked at me, as if I’ve swollen a cork that has stocked up in my throat and no air can escape. I tried to smile but even the fly flying above her head can’t notice.
According to a friend of mine, who I’ve just currently considered as such because of this problem, “Girls like her are just waiting for the boys to make the first step”. She said, “Girls are also shy. If you really want to take the girl’s attention and make friend with her or much more than that, you mustn’t look down on yourself,” she told me.
“Once the girl knows about how you feel for her,” she added, “she’ll try to measure your sincerity. When she uses some humiliating words such as `eeew’, there are only two reasons: she’s trying to keep her feelings for you deep inside her and release it on the right time, for as of now she’s just afraid others will know about it or you’re just so unlucky, she’s sincere on what she said.”
I bet, nobody can answer my lonely yet quiet weird tale. Nothing can express what I’m feeling right now for her even a wild flower can never be this strange. If only either Mr. Bruce or Mr. Clark can lend to me his cape for me someday to take the girl’s hand with me so that the both of us will be flying high with the clouds beneath our knees.
But is my crush really like what my friend said? I hope so cause that’s exactly what I’m feeling for her.